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From: tyagi mordred nagasiva <tyagi@HouseofKaos.Abyss.com>
Subject: Bleeding Times
Date: Kali Yuga 49941011
Quoting: |anonymous

|how did you come to revere the feminine? 

It grew on me.  Perhaps it was my suffering at the hands of men.  Perhaps
it was my deep and lasting love for my mother.  Perhaps I have always loved 
the feminine in form and content since I was born.  My mother's mother was a 
second mom.  Most of my close friends have been women.

Gradually it became a sort of obsession.  Partially likely that I'm a child
of divorced parents I came to value relationships mightily and have had few
'one-night-stands'.  I like involvement on every level and feel that this
has also inspired me to admire women, who appear to be more prone to value
such things.

I spent a lot of time around my mother and her friends when young.  They
treated me pretty much like they treated each other (though allowing for
a difference of experience and perspective, being a boy).


|How did you come to desire blood sports? 

Well strictly speaking I'm not sure that menstrual-blood qualifies as 'blood-
sports', at least not in the BDSM community, but I'm not too familiar with
the terminology.  In any case, I've always been fascinated by the deepest
mysteries of women, from their form and shape to their minds to their
private physiology.  My mother shared with me anything that I asked about,
though this wasn't much.  My relationships with women were such that I could
often ask very personal questions and my mates would respond candidly and
openly about themselves and women's issues.

Partially because I was never told that it was 'problematic' and partly
because I find and found the smell, taste and appearance of the vagina and
its effluvia delectable, I never felt a repulsion at the thought of
oral or any other kind of sex during my mate's period.  In fact, I came
to understand that this was POST-fertility quite often and so it was likely
the best and safest time to engage sex without concerning myself about
pregnancy (my wife would take the pill and so there was no problem, but
previously one of my girlfriends did get pregnant so I've been careful,
even while detesting condoms).

My Abyss allows me very much leeway with her privacy (more so than my
wife-now-sister).  She is more comfortable with her period than any woman
with whom I've been close, and I've been able to play with this, including
using her blood in my magical workings, sleeping with her when she allows
herself to bleed, making love with her flowing, etc.  I'd say that Lisa
has been a major influence on my connection to bleeding time and I feel
very fortunate to know her (bibically too! :>).


|What specific insights have bloodsports brought you, spiritually speaking? 

That's very hard to answer.  I think that accepting bleeding as part of
life and love has led me to be closer to the women that did not attempt to
hide it from themselves and from me.  I've learned that the 'potency' and
'mystery' during sex can be psychologically inspiring (for me at least) when
I'm engaging what appears to be even for me a slightly 'taboo' thing.  As
I enjoy it so I regain a bit of my connection to (my) nature, to my body,
to the wonder that is human animal life.

tyagi